"Damnit Otto, You're an Alcoholic!"

It is the damndest thing being addicted. Surrendering to an addiction is an easy way to live a hard life, and fighting the addiction is the hardest way to live an easy life.
Like my favorite comedian, Mitch Hedburg says, "Alcoholism is the only disease you can get yelled at for having. 'Damnit Otto, You have Lupas!';'Damnit Otto, You're an Alcoholic'. One of those two doesn't sound right". It is funny because it is true.
Most people do not understand addiction. Most people WITH addictions, don't understand addiction. It is a disease, really? You mean it is not my fault? According to my therapist, and crowds in AA, and scientific evidence addiction is not your fault or mine. Then why do I feel so guilty?
Why do I feel so ashamed to admit that I have an eating disorder. Did you know that an eating disorder is actually an addiction to food? I didn't either. I had a nervous breakdown last year and ended up in a recovery center near Ft. Lauderdale, FL. It saved my life. It also made my life harder; fighing this addiction is the hardest thing I've ever done.
I know there are others like me. They are hard to find, because I imagine that like myself, they want to remain anonymous. I am just going to put my story out there. If you want to read it, feel free. Even if no one ever reads this...writing can be my release.