"This crowded bar is full of sin"

I have been having one hell of an addiction trade off the past few weeks. I quit smoking last November, and I was extremely sucessful, I would say. I was relatively at east being around a smoker without indulging, and if I wasn't around cigarette smoke then I wasn't tempted at all. It all started when I was alone, and I drank too much. Something I have been doing too often lately. I sauntered to the closest VP, and threw down five dollars for a pack. I couldn't believe how much the cost has risen in less than a year! Within a week I had smoked the entire pack, continually promising myself that I would not buy another pack. I have since bought, and thrown away or destroyed, at least half a dozen filthy items.
So aside from fighting my addiction to cigarettes, again, I am tortured by thoughts of binging and purging. So far, I have made it 5 days without doing either. It is extremely sad that I am counting days, when until a month ago I had about 9 months free from acting out my ED. I'm sure it has something to do with the amount of alcohol consumption lately. I'm admitting that I have been drinking too much, but I am not ready to admit that I have a problem.
Damn, I just feel like I need SOMETHING. Some coping mechanism for God's sake how else am I supposed to survive the next 6-9 months before moving? I HATE it here! I HATE this cold, dreadful winter that is slowly creeping in...I can already feel the depression closing in.
Let me have my fucking alcohol, and a few cigarettes, and I'll give you a pretty smile and a content attitude. I don't know what kind of monster I would be if I couldn't have my vices behind closed doors.